The so-called post futsal syndrome

Futsal. A game that suddenly Im obssesed into it. Don't know why. Mula-mula macam suka-suka je nak join, tapi lama-lama dah jadi kewajipan pula setiap kali ada kejohanan di Manipal. (I think the sentence sound funny :D). I only began to play this game since last year's North-South Games. Itupun lepas senior-senior batch 17 yang sangat semangat berfutsal desperately ask me to play dan sanggup melatih diri yang agak berkaki bangku ini. Hihi

I got a futsal match 2 days ago, a Supremo Game. Actually after last interbatch I kind of berjanji pada diri sendiri tak nak main futsal dah. And again, it was a coincident to get involved in the game tanpa saya sedari. :P Maka bermulalah episod-episod training yang agak memenatkan sepanjang minggu lepas. I have set my mind to just play for fun in this game, but then, looking at my other team mates, they were very serious in this game. Well, I need to be serious since my critical position in the team. So again, I change my mindset to do as best as I could.

The match day that was supposed to be on the weekend, been postponed to tuesday, had mess a lot of thing in my life actually. Semangat sedikit berkurang, dan fokus pun dah lari sedikit since I got Pharmacology PBL on the match day! The worst thing was, I was the group leader for the PBL,which mean,I had to prepare a lot mentally for it. (Saya seorang yang gelabah)

So that evening, my PBL session ended at 5.15 pm, and my match was scheduled to start at 5.30pm. Bunyinya sangat impossible for me to be there on time. I need to rushed to balik rumah, sembahyang asar, bersiap dan ber'warming up' ke Sharada Court' dengan mengayuh basikal. Seriously I already tired at the moment I was there on the court. Agak blur masa first match. (That's the reason why I let the goal so open, and the batch 21 scored.) That was my fault then. Sigh. Still terbayang muka Ms Vasudha Devi yang assesed our presentation, and I think I did badly during the presentation and as a group leader. Sigh again.

The game ended finally at 9pm with our kekalahan. Its not the matter of kekalahan sahaja, tapi kesan selepas itu. After everything ended up, all of us sat and stayed together in a halaqah, meratapi dan menyesali segala-galanya. 2 of my teammates menangis. Ya, kami sangat sedih dengan kekalahan ini. Even though this is not my first futsal game that we had lost. But this one means a lot for us. We went to Snack Shack's rooftoop, had some dinner and some sembang-sembang kosong merawati kesedihan.

Kesannya:

1. Saya dah jadi macam orang tua, bak kata Pok Jak, sakit-sakit sendi.
2. Tidur saya tidak cukup nyenyak malam itu. Dan ianya bukan terjadi pada saya sahaja, Sera pun.
3. Pertama kali untuk 2nd year ini saya rasa sangat tidak larat untuk bertahan dari mengantuk dalam kelas. Saya tertidur in lecture!
4. Rasa bersalah sangat-sangat dekat team mates lain, buatkan saya sedikit hilang fokus.
5. Saya present untuk SDL Microbiology on the next day, dengan tidak bersedia langsung, dan saya tahu Dr. Shoba mesti tidak gembira dengan presentation saya.
6. I feel like I dont I want to play futsal anymore. :(
7. Saya sangat sayu dan terharu dengan batch mates lain yang keep on giving us moral support even though kami kalah. Thanks guys.
8. Hingga hari ini saya masih terbayang kesilapan saya dalam games itu. Sigh

Above all and all, semua kesan-kesan di atas adalah kerana harapan yang sangat tinggi yang telah kami letakkan pada permulaannya. Apabila hajat tidak tercapai, kekecewaan yang dialami sangat-sangatlah besar. Padahal Allah taala telah mentakdirkan segala-galanya. Kekalahan dalam Supremo Games kali ini adalah yang terbaik buat kami, agar dapat kami baiki kekurangan di masa hadapan.

Hidup ini indah jika kita tahu menghargainya.Tapi ia amat menyakitkan andai kita melaluinya sambil lewa.